Christmas is here!!! haha... waited so long for it,, finally this day came!
Cos today is Jesus's Birthday! He should get presents from us... i wonder what He wants... hmmm...
Church service is so so so GOOD! the drama is really going from glory to glory! Candle light service is BEAUuuuTiiiFULLLL!!! so memorial to me... i brought so much presents, spend like few hundred dollars, body so tired... BUT SO FULFILLING!!! So bless to give then to recieve! freely recieve, freely i wanna give!
I'm so blessed these few days, finally the blessings are coming! i'm so so blessed la! I got so much things(mainly cos my parents came back):i got a new sony lappy( greem colour),i got 2 tops and a pair of jeans from SKIN! i got a printer too and alot alot of good food... haha...
I got a close friend and something in the past happen and it kinda affected him alot recently,i have totally no clue or what so even happen and can't help at all, feel so helpless, all i can do is to pray for him.... aiyo...
i tired already... don wanna talk anymore... BB
__Josh said
|10:07 AM|
Hi ppl!
My exams are like finally over!!! First 3 are still quite ok.. the last was like, erm... you know...
The whole week was a major stretch, juggled with exams, x'mas party and dance event...
But the Lord is faithfully and just (like always)! Exams quite alright, the party went great and of course the dance by the grace of Him it was GOOD!!! Haha...
I learned a lot lately, in the bible, from other helpers, my boss and of course while chiong-ing through my lecture notes... haha...
Some stuff happen lately too, and I notice that I have to be a Big Brother in the CG instead of trying to “telling ppl to do this and do that”, and getting angry/piss at younger members... they don need a General, they need a brother to look up to and learn from… That, from now on is my daily Goal...
I learned that when I share and nag or talk to them, I really need to do it out of LOVE, not cos I feel that they are wrong/did something wrongly… that I gotta drill into my head… Sorry CG, I'll learn from mine and other's past...
But sometimes u just gotta ignore those who talk a lot and do nothing, just gotta continue to do your job well, please your leaders and of course the LORD! The devil will use them to discourage and condemn u… I found myself telling myself that the Holy Spirit won't let me discourage or condemn myself, cos He'll give me rest and refresh me... Amen...
I think for this season, I'll try to do most of the things myself, as to train myself to handle things and to do it with excellence too. I hope i can also train an "armor bearer" too, I can't do everything on my own, he or she will someday have to do what I'm doing now...
To lead ppl through the valleys, I myself gotta go through them myself first... I must lean on the Holy Spirit like never before...
My friends told me this last night when we were in Hong Kong café (till 2am), that talent alone is good but it's not powerful... You need the anointing too! Combine them together (talent + anointing = power/Glory of the Lord)...
Oh man, I need that too, I want that bad... bad...
I came upon a 2 verse lately that amaze me... [Proverbs 9:7-8]
Well, sometime u just gotta sit back and pray for them and let God do the rest...
I'm going to me a UNDERSTANDING, HUMBLE and MEEK man of God...
Catch me next time...
__Josh said
|9:07 PM|
Hi ppl,
These few days are tiring… I’ve my common test the whole of next week and I’m not very prepare, just couldn’t discipline and bring myself down to study… AHHHhhh….
Well, eliz and I are planning to have a sec school class gathering on the 18th dec, Monday at marina steam boat, I hope most of my classmate will turn up, we’ll be meeting at 4 pm at marina bay mrt station. It’s long still I see all of them and I do really miss some of them but actually a portion of them are in ngee ann too… haha
Exams ,Exams… part of growing up in Singapore I think, the amount of pressure my classmates are putting on me is great, hmmm… partly cos I don study as much as they do… oops…
I’ve to help come up with a dance item for next Thursday night “X’MASK” party… haha, guess what, I just start choreo-ing some steps with my friend, but he’s having exams too next week, guess I can’t depend on him so much. I really gotta do a GREAT job, cos about 160 ppl coming… some more it’s my first time performing outside to my zone, shaking now… well, I gotta trust the Lord and my dance mates to come out with good steps and learn it fast. Due to exams I too can’t really spend a lot of time practicing… AIYO…
I just met my boss last night, had a great time of discipleship and sharing… He said we gotta be all rounder so, I’ll be trying to lead praise this week!!! First time!!! Oh man, God’s grace! I wonder what song to sing… Boss also ask me a question that I’ve never thought off… “when do u think u’ll become a cgl? What time next year?” OH MAN, it blew me away… He said why not earliest by next june… I was like, “ARE U SURE?!”, then I recall something he said, (sometimes your leader's words are very powerful and will come to pass), so I was praying last night and asking for God’s grace and everything!!! You know what?! since God had never let me down, and will never let me down, I think I might just be one… BUT I must keep my conscience pure and humble… why do I wanna be a cgl? At what cost am I willing to lay down for it?
My answer is: I want to be one cos I feel it’s my calling and that my leaders had already confirmed it a few time, I WANT TO HELP BUILD THE KINGDOM OF GOD!,I want to bring the lost in , I want to build Life! I wanna share God’s GREATNESS and LOVE!!! I wanna do my part in the kingdom of God… and I’ll lay down EVERYTHING I have or will have… come to think of it, they’re given by God and He can easily take them away(but whatever He gives, He don take back)… even if my fresh is unwilling, I’ll make sure it’s WILLING… muahahaha… Well, let His will be done, not mine… So me being one is purely base on His sovereignty… PRAISE THE LORD!
BS is getting more and more interesting! Now learn about Lucifer… Pride and Rebellion is two of the worse sin God hates, sometime we unknowingly have them, check yourself daily… I recently encountered and fought against one of them… aiyo…
Word of the day…
“the only way up is the way down…”
A leader always started out a servant, as u starts to servant others and humble yourself, God'll honor you and then u'll rise up... There's this saying, if there's a shelf full of presents, the best ones are normally at the bottom( cos i think they're the heaviest )... You sometimes need to go down in order to go up...
__Josh said
|7:59 AM|
Hi guys,
I've put Flakey to sleep hours few ago... the last time i saw her was this morning, i didn't even pat her the last time... hai, i guess i'm not so good a owner ba... my cousin bought her to the vet just now, so i didn't get to see her... i guess i wouldn't wanna see her being injected in her tiny heart and die... good in a way, i think... WOW!!!! heart aching... she've been the house guardian of my house for 1yr and 2 mths ba... now i'll still stare blankly at her empty cage and "stone"... I'll always miss u...
I went town today planning to go "SKIN" look see look see, then jeremy suppose to teach me math but end up walking all over town to look for a polo t-shirt(didn't buy in the end) and for this SHOP that sells cheap/fake stuff but can't find it at all... kelvin tiang! i feel so cheated by YOU!!! then went to eat at HONG KONG cafe at cine, where i learn some math, some only...
Recently i've been doing my wish-list and my christmas-list... i dunno where to get the money to buy them but i'm believing for a miracle... I guess u can give without loving but U CAN'T LOVE WITHOUT GIVING... u guys out there still can try to get into the list la... try la.. hehehe...
I'm so piss and heart ache!!! someone in my house( i think is my uncle's GF) go and machince wash my SKIN t-shirt that costed me a BOMB and all the colours and the layer of golden design CAME OFF!!! OUCH!!! is good intention la, but in a big cost... well, this saying in chinese- old ones don't go, new ones don't come...haha... are u thinking what i'm thinking? (evil smile....) no la, righteous laughter!!!
i just talk to my mum just now...i final convince her that teaching ( persuading my dream) is what i wanna do, not what she or my dad wants me to do... Yes, no money can't persuade your dream, interest is second, BUT are u willing to live with the fact that u didn't even try to persuade or do/get something u really want? my friend, i don't wanna regret not doing it, cos i believe that once u got a vision from God, He'll ensure it'll come to past... Ya, so i'm so glad that she understands final, but i believe i didn't talk to her with my own ability, i felt the Holy Spirit talking through me... empowerment from on high... wow!
Word of the day...
"Divine empowerment is base upon your ACCEPTANCE of RESPONSIBILITY that God has called you to do"
BYE!
wow, someone seems to be getting alot of male attention ah... hehehe...
__Josh said
|8:18 AM|
Hi ppl... i've very good news and bad ones... but lets do those later...
Ok... lets start with happy stuff( cos i'm a happy boy)... I just pledge my FIRST arise and build... it felt COOL... so happy la, guess what, blessing are pouring in...
Pst Phil's msg were so power la... Prayer is everything... level of prayer= level of relationship... Abundances follows obediences... ppl are generally motivated by 2 thing... the hope of gain and the fear of lost... which are u?
I learned that prayer is more important than worship. Prayer is not natural for ppl, the fresh don like to pray, it's only natural (fresh and spirit rite), BUT I want to discipline myself to pray cos i WANT to draw near... Capacity is the ability to wait for God, Patience = Capacity! Make Jesus the Goal of my Prayer life...
2 things u gotta do, pray till you have a break through and praying in faith(believing it'll come to pass)
Praying man don't SIN
Sinning man don't PRAY
you know? the things that will change eternity is determines how much of God is in YOU!( think about it...)
ok, lets talk about other stuff...
Sorry guys, my family and I will be putting Flakey(bunny) to sleep, her leg infections can't be treated anymore, and it'll only bring more pain and suffering to her tiny little body, i can't bear the pain to she her in pain, rather, i couldn't bring myself to let her die... She has been a faithful and troublesome bunny but she has bought joy and laughter to me, actually i was suppose to put her to sleep just now at the vet but she was too active and i couldn't bear but to bring her home for the last time, at least to play and take pictures of her for 10 more days.
I pass my math paper finally but i really need to put in more effort on it and other subjects... i gotta do well man, sick and tired to just passing... i'm not called for that... 2 more week to common test... jia you ba!!!
Oh, i got blessed! i actually i told God i wanted to eat maggie for dinner to save money BUT...
My cousin came to bring Flakey to see the vet then we went to eat JAP food!!! wow, so full...
then went NTUC to stock up my food supply and guess what, I GOT "BEN & JERRY'S ice SCREAM"
__Josh said
|8:34 AM|
I got my IPC paper back... I PASSED, but not very very good la, but still... i could have work harder(i think...) a long day today... 3 hours break man, so i went to library alone to study for my Bio-mol quiz on monday... AIYO... i still got Engineer-math paper on monday also, totally not prepare for it, but since jeremy finish his 'A's already then... erm.... hehehe... very free hor...
new hair cut... guess what, my uncle(a hair stylist) took 30 mins! to cut a botak head today!!! Goodness! botak leh!...30 mins... i think he trying to waste time to pretend he do alot of stuff to the hair so that the guy will pay have the $40... Botak = $40... think about it....
i when steam boat just now... althought not with my cg but with my helper friends... we're getting closer leh... hehehe... (do anyhow think). I feel quite guilty, cos i was late then didn't pay for the food, then i ate quite alot... but i brought drink for them... and this fellow, play DARE then drink raw egg half way then vomit at my CRUMPLER bag... dotes... so blessed... then after that we had some "inmature boys fun" aka "toaw pop", fun but tiring...
Recenting in Bible study i learn abt eternal judgement, it came to a point that i was thinking and asking myself, " AmI ready to stand before Jesus?!" in the sense that i feel that i've not fulfill my calling and there's SO SO SO MUCH to do and i dunno if i'm doing them rite... i must really learn to lean on God's strenght and power totally from now on... And one now thing, i learn that ppl who's luke-warm and quiet christians have either never been touch by God or forget abt their first LOVE... nothing much we can do but pray for them... they gotta pray and ask God for it themselves, then a touch from God, their lifes will be totally change.
Like i said before... different church, different vision, different flow... i believe that in a relationship both parties have to have the same vision, or at least should agree or support the other's vision... I dunno how will it be like but i believe it will either be stepping stone or stumbling block... If both will to go serperate ones then it'll be tough and unfair for both parties... But if it's God's will then there'll be an answer and a way... haha, i don have to worry, cos i have the things today to worry, the future... i leave it up to DADDY...
Oh, oh ,oh... my new lappy will only come in 5 to 6 weeks time... i was thinking a macbook... white or black???
i'm still looking for ppl in school to hang out... but sometimes must give and take, the boys are kinda more accepting already... Thats cool, PTL... but my buddys outside is still the BEST!!! especially the One who's always with me... thanks Buddy!!!
The END of a thing is BETTER than its BEGINNING... year ending soon... so excited... hehehehehehe....
i need money printer already, dec got X' mas and alot of friends Bday... but i'll get my supplies soon, i think...
Tata... ciao... Bye...3.50am already, tml cg... no panda allow...
__Josh said
|10:53 AM|
WOW... so long since i ever came here to blog... spiderwebs all around here... ok(i should stop already)
I dunno where and how to start... hmmm... So far so good...
Currently in Building Fund season! I guess i've pledge alot but guess what! up to today(2 weeks from the pledging day) I already COMPLETED MORE THAN HALF of it... cos God bless me with tuition 'lobang' ma... so exciting, i believe and pray that this season i'll be super stretched and enlarged in my capacity... get ready man!!! haha... can't wait to share more testimony(especially financial ones)... My pocket may be empty but i'm NOT IN LACK!!!
I'm currently actively serving in church(choir) and CG(helper), i feel that i'm doing what God wants me to do, rather then wasting all my time wondering aimless in the streets or playing games... I've been actively hanging out and fellowshipping with my new friends(irene's helpers), can get along well, i believe it's cos of the same common goals and visions we have( become a CGL)... i pray God will use them and me to help one another and to change us to become mighter men for God!!!
Ya, CG vision, to hit 20 regular members for cg and service... not impossible, Growth starts from the heart and its already planted in our hearts (BOSS, other w242 helpers) It's growing, BIG... Actually is hitting already... hehe...
School is cool... i think, this sem the subjects are quite ok and understandable... I've funny/cool lecturers and boring/mono-tone lecturers to super impatience/naggy ones... My math is currently sinking badly, but i planning to have tuition la, oh ya, tml have Mr. Kunju Kunju Shine's test... i need a miracle... hehehe...
Yup... joining magnum soon, waiting for them to come back to s'pore i think.... currently also training my physic... getting lazy soon... Ooops
Oh ya... I believe that, u know, respect don just come in a form of calling one another "brothers or sisters", i feel that the way we bring ourselves to our leaders and elders or ppl with authority, and the way we honor them plays a even greater part, i mean u can call someone "brother this, sister that" but still disrespect them... Ppl follows ppl with leadership, not titles... the pharisees loved the titles but look at them, rite... i believe i'll flow with my church and leaders, if my leaders have no problems with it,neither do i... we stop calling one another bro and sis cos we want to be relevant to the world when we're in the market place, the fact is ppl do get intimidated by titles... ya... haha, don worry... i understand if u don understand...
ya, so i'm currently looking for more 'lobangs' cos my tuition kids went back to thailand, so jobless now... but keep ya fingers cross...
Yuppy, i graduating from my BS class with the SOT students... cool ah... i'm also desperating wanting to be baptize... Mummy, can i? Faith is not in the absence of doubts and impossibilities but knowing that u can be in peace and trust "Daddy"...
Thats all folks...
__Josh said
|7:49 AM|